Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 12:53 AM
i miss mg terribly. no. more of my mg friends than anything else.
we've all parted on our different routes, and..we're all leading new lives.
In my school, i have a group i always sit with.
- nemo
- ee jie
- justin
- samantha
- paula
- joshua
- jeffery
yeah there's 8 of us, including me.
In this school, i find it much easier to make friends with the guys..compared to the girls..call me weird..but..whatever.
My closest guy friends in this school:
-Ee jie
- kevin
- justin
- nemo
ee jie..is my closest guy friend..because..he's my ib.
and i'm his.
he's also..a good listener..and..kinda my confidante.
but..i have to admit that..i dont always go to him first..
when i've got my problems.
Its either danielle or my mg friends first..then..him..but..usually..it depends on the issue..i have.
and lately..theres one..tugging on my heart strings.
cos it stings..quite a lot.
they've told me..to not get so worked up.
but..if it were u..
im sure youd do the same.
the details:
i have a close close close guy friend from this skool.
lately..he's been avoiding me, ignoring me, treating me as though i'm invisible..
i wanna noe y..if its true.. i wanna say..im relli relli sorry..but..sometimes in life..you cant alwyas get what you want.
and sometimes..its all about the letting go.
you just need to let go.
and when i say let go..i dont mean..totally forgetting the past..
i mean..let go..but still reamain friends.
it gets really tiring..a dat spent in school, not laughing with you anymore..
it feels as though..theres some missing piece.
thats right there..but..always..so elusive.
what if i told you..that sometimes..i enjoy school so much better with you.
would you stop ignoring me?
if what i'm guessing is right..
i know..what it feels like..to be in this position.
neither here nor there..am i wrong?
you said youve stood to close to the fire.. and so have i.
and..im sorry for that, too.
i want you to noe tt..
i've always seen you as my really good friend.
and nothing more.
ever since i met you.. i always thought you were going to be a great friend.
but now..
the choices youve made..
its..
hurting the both of us.
am i just worrying too much..or have i seen too much into the details.
no, i still dont think so.
i've been praying for quite sometime already. will you be so cold..like u were the past week?
and the atmosphere gets so strained?
i've been such a whimp. i dont dare to talk to you anymore.. especially on msn. so..i try to leave really subtle msgs. on my pm. if you didnt already noe..it's always been directed to you.
and..you replied one..the fire one..
i asked you wad your fire was. and you said.. secret.
mondays just some hours away. the numbers really dont matter anymore.
i just want us to go back to where we were before.. before all these..complications.
where we were all smiles and nothing else;
and..its been quite sometime now.
please..will you just forgive me?
say you will.